So this is something that’s been brewing for a while .... Slash and I have had a couple of long conversations over the last few days, and went over what he has planned to try to breathe some life into this place .... I took a few days to really think long and hard about it and I tried to get excited.... While I believe the ideas are good ones and address some of the problems, I still believe it’s just time for me to finally move on from the E fed ....
To Slash, it was our idea to create the Swarm in the first place so I just want to thank you for everything .... I applaud the fact that you that you recognize that changes in leadership need to be made, unfortunately if the changes made only involve one person, then it puts too much of the responsibility on that persons shoulders because it doesn’t change anyone else .... For the E fed to ever be good again that requires change by everyone, it requires a change in the culture around here .... it requires people not voting for someone just because they are their friend, or vote for someone just because they are the ones that see the votes or do the rankings .... or voting for someone just to keep from voting for someone else they may not like .... or not paying attention to what is going on in the fed as a whole, and generally just not being a drain on the e fed for years at a time like some .... right now this place isn’t a community, it’s a bunch of individuals working against each other or not working at all .... When you look at it the only two people working together are Messiah and Goose .... it basically means nothing to bust your ass posting, leaving feedback, do title voting, the rankings, and the fed wide events .... it feels like more work than fun and has for a while now .... I do it just because it’s what I’ve done for so long and I don’t know anything else .... that’s not really a good reason to keep doing it ....
I’ve always been a part of that group .... Over 15 years, all the ups and downs, quitting is something I’ve never said until now .... I don’t want this E fed to die, I helped start it .... hopefully Slash’s ideas work and the E fed keeps going .... I just don’t think it’s going to keep going with me being a part of it .... this isn’t me being mad or anything like that, although resentment and bias has built in all of us over the years for various reasons .... this is just me being tired .... 15 years is a long time .... over 700 shows across 2 boards .... I have always been a constant here .... Ive endured through family tragedies, personal problems, a divorce, re-marriage, being black-balled and villified by the entire Fed, the death of my son, almost getting divorced again etc. .... I’ve been doing this longer than my 2 youngest kids have been alive .... I have had my issues with the E fed on and off since 2012 but I never quit .... some of the same things going on now remind me of why Slash and I left the old board to start the Swarm in the first place .... the same reason I chose to express my frustration through the Jericho angle 8 years ago .... unfortunately old bias’ are still around and those are a cancer to this community and always will be .... it goes way beyond rosters and world titles and self voting ....
Despite everything I just said, I didn’t really realize my time was up until, while I stepped away for a month mourning the death of my son, people were actually voting to get world titles off me .... that is a conversation that I still remember to this day .... Then when Slash was out because of his wreck, without a show posted, he was 1-2 in several categories and was in no danger of losing his multiple world titles .... That’s not a shot at Slash, because he agrees with me that it wasn’t right .... but that is just indicative of the culture here .... Chad voted for himself to lose the tag titles at Wrestlemania because he hadn’t been active for two months .... he retained them and barley posted again until May .... Then he whips out 6 shows in 5 weeks and loses the tag titles to the Gangsters who had been suspended for 30 days .... it’s obvious people that vote don’t know what is going on in the E fed .... And even after that it was something as trivial as another promoter on here being a dick over me asking to run a few shows in his territory during the Bash that finally made me decide that maybe it’s time to move on .... there are people on here that don’t like me and that’s fine .... there are people on here I don’t like also .... so if that’s the case, why keep doing it?
I think if you look at it and if you are still carrying a grudge against me for using a wrestling angle to address the hypocrisy and the clique behavior in this community over 8 years ago then maybe you need to get a grip .... Some people on here don’t even know what I’m talking about .... and if you don’t, then that comment obviously wasnt directed at you .... I’ve always tried to work with anyone that wanted to work with me on anything from using my talent to booking world champions, making other people’s talent look good, and various angles and such .... I want to especially say I appreciate wew because he has given me a lot of talent for free over the years .... and I appreciate everyone else that I have ever worked with because there isn’t a person in here I’m not able to work well together because that’s how it’s SUPPOSED to be .... I will still put mine and Slash’s Tully & CM Punk angle up against anything that’s ever been done in the E fed .... in closing, there are really creative people on here so there’s no reason the E fed shouldn’t keep going strong .... it will just keep going without me ....
